Kills My Princessity

I keep dreaming these days... my best friend woke me up!
He shouted to me " STOP! "
He gave me thousands of reasons why I should not CARE anymore.
What about now?? What about today?? don't ever care at all !
My other friends ask me " WHY ? "
I have no idea WHY.

I heard a lot of harsh words get into my ears. I still can create a smile.
I read lies ! I heard lies ! I saw lies! I given lies !
everything was totally fake. YES! Now I do feel like a fake human being!

These what had happened.
I thought I'm standing on the truth...but i didn't realize that I'm blind! i forgot where i use to be
Truth?? What truth?? Tell me....
waittt....How I'm going to answer that ? while i don't really know what it is..
I'm a coward begging for a coward.and one day, i will found myself living with chicken's in C.O Ward!

Don't look at the sky... but look on the ground where you are standing. and whisper to yourself
"Hey, you were NOT up there, but u were DOWN here! "

Go inside your room... Look into the big mirror hanging on the wall, see yourself ! and whisper
"You are prettier than before. This face what people are keep looking, not a person who love to stare at!"

I always keep listening to the others are keep crying for hundreds time that they sick of their life, and wanted to begin a new life...!
try ask em' what is the new things? What have changed? How the new life looks like?

There is NO new things, NOTHING change, and WE CANT SEE LIFE!
still using the same name
still wearing the same clothes
still friend with old friends
still have the same face
still living with the same heart
still inhale the same air.....
everything was the same, only the time is changing from a second to a minute.

there's no new life that people keep gossiping about,
we can't change our life but we have to change our view... this what we can say NEW.

change your view on people around you...
they are pushing you and it felt like they are pushing you away! that's your view.
but on their view, they are pushing u to walk with their support.

I'm a girl who talks a lot - carrying big stories to share.
I'm a girl who have big eyes - but i can't see and read people hearts
I'm a girl who create smiles everyday -but i cry before i went to bed

The girl who try to understand someone else, but now she can't hold on anymore, she just have to move on, burying the love chain that's already ended. somehow there's a shadow will be the witness. For now the time is moving with her, and keep these memories in her heart.

As long as I live there's more I can give. If never enough i can give anything but up!
As far as i go there's one thing i know, It's never to tough,
I'll give everything but up.

I need someone, and anybody, help to pull me out from this black hole.
I shouldn't be in here from the start.

bb.
Airarora

Going back to KL tomorrow...
huhu..
packing~packing

sekolah la!
heee.. malas ney sungguh.!
minci~minci

bb.
Airarora

Apa yang aku buat semua salah, bodoh...
kena buat mcam tu....... macam ni......
apa lagi??
dah tolong... lagi duk "pot~ pet ~pot pet!!"
tak tolong nanti.. kata aku penyegan!
suruh aku berambus balik sana cepat.. takpa.. mmg aku nak balik cepat pun!
baik aku duk kat sana sorang2 tadak sapa kacau aku...
aku nak buat kerja bila-bila pun takpa..asalkan tak pening pala otak!
semua aku boleh buat sorang2!

Kata pi la aku macam2... asalkan aku tak ikut perangai mu...
cakap punyala tinggi.. asal kena bodek.. euww.. u know la an..
hishh.. after this i don't care what are u going to say "bla bla bla.."

U do it yourself!!

bb.
Airarora

heeee~ sadis betul la !!


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Airarora

Aper jenis punya essay la.. yg si Sam suruh aku buat!
pffttt...

*bodo'h

bb.
Airarora

buat budget.... kira-kira.. urghhh..
giler malasss...!


bb.
Airarora

I can't sleep!
i miss you sooo much!

(T_T)

listening to:- Holiday -Hilary Duff

bb.
Airarora

My lappy fixed!!!! weeee....
love you.. love you! hahaha

bb.
Airarora

Hp oii... siap la cepat2 sikit... aku dh hantaq dkat sebulan lebih dah ni...
ishh..
aku nak balik kl dah ni!!! AAaaaaaa
p/s: abah beli baru laa...!

bb.
Airarora

Aku dah send sms.. maki hamun pun tak paham bahasa lagi...
aku tulis pelet utara... dia org kedah (origin) reply pelet KL.. tak jadi plak tu.. macam sial adala..

aku dh gtau.. aku takkan kawan ngan dia sampai bila2..
dia nak mampus skali pun aku tak heran..!

ayat terakhir dia
"Terima kasih cik hazirah. sesungguhnya, aku gembira berkawan dengan kau hazirah. skali lg aku minta maaf kat kau cik hazirah."

apa lunch punya ayat aku pun taktau...
-cik
-kau
-hazirah

eeee... lahanat betul la dia ni.. nak balik zaman P.Ramlee ka pa aku pun taktau!


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Airarora

Please Aira... rajin la sikit...!!! pleaseee... Tolong laaa.. tolong laa..!

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Airarora